Saturday, December 24, 2016

Christmas Eve and Other Drugs

The title has no significant meaning, I just added the "Other Drugs" to catch your attention. I hope you don't feel too betrayed right now.

What I really wanted to talk about is how people change, sometimes without you even realizing it until you do. People especially change when you only see them once or twice a year for the holidays, and especially ESPECIALLY little kids. Seriously, they go from three to four and they can suddenly speak comprehensible sentences, their mouths moving at 10 mph.

From our one foot tall to two feet, to three, to four, to most of us, five, maybe six feet. With every inch, every new word, every mistake, we grow. Soon enough, even when we stop physically growing, our minds keep going, then after awhile, the mistakes we've made fill up a whole dumpster. But we learn. We grow.
Some of us learn that drinking and partying isn't as glamorous as it is on TV with that morning hangover, an ache pounding so hard against your skull you think it might split open. Some of us don't and use the physical ache as a distraction of the ache in our hearts that cannot be surgically removed. Some of us grow and learn more about the world only to feel disillusioned––lost in the contradictions society.

Love everyone, but do not trust the people sleeping on the sidewalks dressed in tawdry clothing because for all you know, they just flushed a hundred dollars down the toilet for their fix of heroin. Open your heart, but do not become a needy burden. Be independent, but do not stick to your narrow-mindedness.
How can anyone grow to be themselves if, no matter who you are, you're judged? There's just no winning here.

It's that time of year people start evaluating who they are. Let's be honest, none of us are 100% satisfied. If you are, you're either an egocentric prick lying to yourself or you're just really damn lucky. Change is good, sometimes needed, but there's a difference between a want and a need, between greed and growth. You want to be rich, but you only need enough money to live comfortably. You want that dress because it's a jaw-dropping, sexy piece of fabric, but you need a new pair of jeans. You want that joint or sip of alcohol to take the edge off a rough day, but you need to change because it's been affecting your grades, your work performance, your relationships, or all of the above. You know, it's okay to want things, but sometimes we need to make sure the things we want are things that are good for us.

"We accept the love we think we deserve." A lot of you may know this saying from The Perks of Being A Wallflower. What a sad reality.
Everyone deserves love, so don't forget that no matter what mistakes you've made growing up, at least you grew, and just because you made those mistakes does not mean you deserve less. Drop the cigarette. Drain the bottle. You do not deserve the "love" that drugs give you.

You deserve the heart-warming love that can only come from another beating heart.

Merry Christmas,

Alena 

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